Bismillah ar-rahman ar-rahim.
I'm someone, someone who is trying to change n i want to change myself towards goodness. bein hampered by a lot of obstacles n devil's whispers, i'm still trying hard to change, inshaAllah.
while goin thro e process, i realize smthg, smthg tht is always bein taught n emphasized in Islam, 'promote goodness n prevent evil'...unfortunately, i became a weak servant of Allah, a very weak one that can't stop anyone from doin evil n afraid of asking ppl to join goodness. i'm very much weak that i can't even say a word protesting it.
"Whenever one of you sees ugly behavior or something unpleasant, let him change it with his hand. If he does not have the strength to change it with his hand, let him change it with his tongue. If he is not strong enough to do this, let him reproach it in his heart. The last approach is the weakest form of faith" (Muslim,Iman 78; Abu Davud, Salat 232).
O Allah, i am a very weak servant of Yours. i'm hating n hating it truly but not doin much in changing it. I thought i was strong but i was very wrong ya Rabb. my iman is in its lowest form ya Allah. i'm helpless, i'm helpless...
Sometimes, i feel i am so selfish trying to change myself while leaving others behind with their misbehaviors. at that moment, i feel so sad n start to imagine what if one of my beloved was e one i left behind. na'uzubillah.. but, actually i'm a coward person who is scared to admonish someone.
While reciting e Quran, a verse came across;
30. One Day We will ask Hell,
"Are you filled to the full?"
It will say,
"Are there anymore (to come)?"
(Surah Qaf)
If the capacity of the Reward is unlimited,
so is the capacity of the punishment.
Sometimes people make jokes about heaven and hell due to their
non-serious attitude and say things like, “if the majority is going to be punished then how are they going to fit in?” Allah is telling us
here that it is so tremendously huge that it will keep on asking for
more, like a live monster.
my tears started to flow, what if one of those who i left behind face this?? or what if i myself face it?? na'uzubillah.
i know, i know that only Allah has the Power to give guidance to whom HE wish. but, as HIS servant, i've to play my part too. i don't know where am i leading with my this attitude, questioning myself, am i a selfish or coward. wallahu 'alam....
salam. ain, may Allah give u strength..
ReplyDeleteain guess i know whats happng there.ain awk bole..knp kata
ReplyDelete"i feel i am so selfish trying to change myself while leaving others behind with their misbehaviors"
takla ain.awk bkn selfish..bila allah kata promote goodness He doesnt specifically say promote by mouth kan?infact awk bole tnjk melalui akhlaq awk ape?
sedeh tgk awk sedey..ur neither coward nor selfish ain..ur the bestest daugher,sister i ever known..the strongest i would say.d 1 that bear all the hardship alone..atleast u tried..
ur very best..itu yang wat kt kagum dengn awk.
macam dapat bayang what r u goin thru skang ni..jgn sedey.insyallah awk bole.kuat ain!^^(hadiah senyuman untuk awk..smg awk tenang sahabat ^^)
btw i purposedly use "bestest" tu.haha terigt reaksi awk dulu.mis u ain=)
adilah: amen, inshaAllah..
ReplyDeleteshahira: darling, u r my replica, no wonder u cn feel my "insight".. inshaAllah, i hope e best will b granted.... anyway shahira, it's so difficult doin thgs alone, u knw wht i mean rite, like u alwys say... btw, kte senyum sinis mse trbce "bestest" tu, n tgk2 awk dh mention kt bwh..haha..anyway, tc dear, missing u too :)