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Be the one in a million
in'sha'Allah

Friday, February 11, 2011

I didn't love it from the beginning

"Find a job which you love then you don't have to work even a day. Once you have a deep love for doing something, it is no more work. It takes gut, conviction and courage to be doing something you want and not be pressured into something you don't love." ~a wise man saying.

also, always Islam taught us
2:195 And spend of your substance in the cause of Allah, and make not your own hands contribute to (your) destruction; but do good; for Allah loveth those who do good.
     




ya Allah, pls don't let me astary. i need YOUR guidance very much now. i knew tht i wsn't totally remembering YOU when i was in my joyful mood, i ws so preoccupied w those worldly thgs. but ya Rabbi, i'm a very weak servant of YOURS. please give me enough strength to face all these.

why?? what is happening to me?? why am i losing my concentration???
 why am i not being like before,- e girl that see thgs critically n always being enthusiastic n competitive, she who wont take thgs for granted n always work hard in doing thgs. she who never knew wht failure is..
mashaAllah, what is happening to me???

                                         i've done it good prior.
ws thinking n thinking what cause e failure, y do i feel that i purposely did it. y did my nervousness didnt show up w any signs, y? y? y? why i took it for granted??? y didn't i thought of e outcome?? y did i let e money to fly in e air just like tht???  y do i laughed when i knew that i failed?? y do i feel sad n stressed but couldn't cry at e same time?? and y did i burst into tears when seeking The Almighty during my salat?? y is all these happening to me?? y?? y?? y??
 no, no, no... i think i found e answer. each n every thg happens has its wisdom. just like newton's third, each action has its reaction, n if we look deeper into it via revelation point of view, it is very true. Allah knows better.
i didn't love it from e very beginning. i always looked at it like a burden n reflected negativity twrds it.
thats e reason for my failure this time....
i don't know whr am i heading w this kinda attitude.
i have to love doing thgs in order to do 'em perfectly.
back to basic concept, ihsan in daily life will lead a success in world n hereafter, inshaAllah